Eulogy for Bill Roberts

Eulogy

William (Bill) Lloyd Roberts, M.Div., Ph.D.

November 8, 1937 – October 29, 2012

Funeral Service held at Wolf Run Presbyterian Church

Cameron, West Virginia

            We first met on a Saturday morning some 36-37 years ago.  He, Sue and David had just moved to Sistersville to begin pastoral and manse life in the town’s Presbyterian Church.  Our family had arrived about a year earlier for the same reason, but in the town’s United Methodist congregation.  Bill walked the four blocks from his office over to our parsonage to introduce himself.  When he got there, he found my wife, Polly, sitting on the ground replacing a broken basement window.

            Approaching Polly, he introduced himself, “Hello, I’m Bill Roberts, the new Presbyterian pastor in town.  Is your husband around?”

            Getting up from the ground, Polly said, “Hello, it’s nice to meet you.  Yes Jim’s here.  He’s inside cooking breakfast.”

             Bill said later that that’s when he knew he was going to like our family, what with the seeming role reversal, which back in the 70s was more unusual than it is today.  What Bill didn’t know at the time was that I had attempted to fix the window earlier that morning, but the pane Polly measured and purchased didn’t fit, and in response to my less than patient reaction, Polly was determined to do the repair herself.  If Bill had known the back story, he might not have been as apt to accept our invitation to join us for pancakes and bacon, our son’s favorite Saturday morning fare.  That gathering around the table was the first of countless such times of genuine communion, and the bond over the years of our two families has enhanced and deepened our appreciation for relationships that make life worth living.

            Actually, Bill was the older brother I never had, and sometimes he would act like an older brother.  Occasionally, we would have fallings-out, but, as Bill taught me, getting upset with one another doesn’t mean we’re going to throw one another away.  Quite the opposite, we’ll work it through and move on.  Sometimes, as brothers tend to do, we’d taunt one another.  Usually Bill, quicker and more perceptive than I, would catch the hidden meaning of something I had said, and he made certain that I understood what I really meant (not always appreciated).  The places where I could rib Bill usually had to do with the little details he often missed.  Bill was so intensely focused on his responsibilities as a pastor, counselor, mentor and in his other helping roles that he sometimes forgot the little things of everyday life, like wiping dog doo-doo off your shoes before entering the house.  That happened once when he was visiting us, and before Polly had the chance to address it with Bill, I took some twisted delight in razzing him about it: “Polly’s going to get you!”  Poor Bill; he did feel badly and like a pesky younger brother I made it worse.

            But Bill’s exceptional genius, his skills and care were such that while he might inwardly feel embarrassment or pain, he rarely reacted in harmful ways.  He could be a “bear,” but most of the time he was a “gentle bear,” and his aim was always to work toward healing and wholeness, even if that meant putting his own feelings aside for the moment.  He may have begun to adopt such stoicism as a child who encountered more dysfunction than is good for a child.  Then later as a Ph.D. student at Princeton, working closely with Dr. Seward Hiltner, the Grandfather of the Pastoral Counseling Movement, and Dr. Michael Andronico, Bill developed a keen and uncanny intuitive sophistication in seeing through the various complex components of a situation and guiding those involved toward resolutions that fostered forward movement and constructive outcomes.

            What an amazing myriad of life immersions Bill has known!  Earning his Ph.D., Bill’s journey has carried him to pastorates of both large and small congregations (or corporate and family churches, as we sometimes call them—Bill’s preference was clearly for the latter, the congregations where relational values took precedence over procedure,  propriety, pomposity and other business-like protocols).  Not only so, but it was in the small faith family where Bill found the freedom to fulfill the many facets of his calling.  The small church, particularly this congregation here at Wolf Run, afforded the opportunity for Bill to put to good use all of the competencies he had acquired, including his designing and coordinating a major national research project sponsored by twelve Protestant denominations studying what makes for effective Christian education; his gaining a number of certifications and licenses in Social Work, Gerontology, Conflict Mediation and Counseling; his years as a professor at a seminary in Pittsburgh (the one he sometimes referred to as the other PTS); his work as a consultant to denominations and congregations in areas needing skilled mediation, especially in church/pastor conflicts; but all of that pales when contrasted with the painstaking zeal he gave to individuals struggling with overwhelming difficulties and looking for a better way.  Bill was single-minded in his devotion to those looking for a credible, meaningful and better life.

            One way Bill, and his wife Sue, made that kind of difference was through what became called the “adopted daughter process,” an idea that had its origin in Bill’s doctoral dissertation.    Having committed early in their marriage to having one natural child, they also decided to always leave room in their family for at least one “adopted child.”  The first opportunity came when Bill and Sue met a fourteen-year-old at a church camp whose name is Sally, the daughter of affluent, professional parents.  When Sally, Bill and Sue met, somehow something clicked, and that led to Sally’s frequent visits with and inclusion in the Roberts clan.  Those visits became a springboard for Sally to try out fledgling ideas, plans and feelings.  She treated Bill and Sue’s young son as a brother, and she was the one who taught toddler David how to drink from a pop bottle.  The Roberts’ influence on Sally made a difference.  She matured beautifully and in time earned her own Ph.D. at a prestigious university, and then she married and became the mother of three children.  On her wedding day, Bill approached Sally’s mom and said, “This must be a very proud day for you.”  With a tear in her eye, Sally’s mother responded to Bill, “No, this must be a proud day for you.”

            Over the course of their married life, Bill and Sue have provided that kind of safe and guiding environment to twenty-six adopted daughters.  These women have moved on having become accomplished individuals in their own right.  There is occasional contact with them, or in some instances, none at all.  But having been helped to go and do and be whom they are meant to be, these adoptees were not made to feel obligated to Bill and Sue, but were encouraged to give to others as they had received.

            Valley Chapel in Fairmont, the congregation where I was pastor prior to retirement, with some nudging became convinced that having someone of Bill’s caliber on staff could provide some much-needed services, and so in 1990 Bill set up a satellite counseling office in our church and the two of us worked side by side for the next fourteen years.  Those years saw Bill working with domestic violence situations, addiction cases, adolescents undergoing adjustment issues, pastors and/or their spouses referred by denominational authorities, potential divorce situations referred by the Family Court Judge, at-risk youth, PTSD victims, and individuals struggling with vocational issues.  Some clients were provided help on a pro bono basis, and the others were willing and able to pay the $30 fee for sessions that lasted anywhere from an hour to an hour-and-half.  Talk about getting the most bang for your buck!  We deliberately did not advertise the existence of the counseling center; it gained its excellent reputation because of its many satisfied customers.  An added benefit of Bill’s presence on our staff was that he became the consultant to our Christian education programs, including the week-day pre-school, licensed day care and tutoring programs as well as the Sunday school classes.  Bill’s roles here included meetings with the Child Development Center Staff, assistance in the development of Sunday school lessons, and actual sessions in which Bill taught class sessions, demonstrating a process of educating children that works.  It is impossible to know just how far-reaching Bill’s contribution to the life of our congregation was, but it definitely made an important impact.

            Sometimes, Bill needed backstopping when it came to the little details—like the time a counselee brought three or four bongs to a counseling session to signify a decision to quit smoking marijuana.  Bill’s office was located just off the left side of the front of the sanctuary, and rather than hiding the bongs in his office until they could be marshaled inconspicuously off the premises, he lined them up on the front pew.  Fortunately they were discovered before Sunday, but not before choir members saw them during their rehearsal on Wednesday.  It did seem curious that some of them knew what they were.

            One of the members of Valley Chapel, upon learning of Bill’s dying, sent an e-mail expressing his appreciation:

“Sorry to hear of Bill’s passing although I was aware of how bad his health had become.  I had some great conversations with him and recall once asking him to talk to a young man who had told me he thought he was gay.  I told this fellow I haven’t a clue about this, but suggested he see Bill.  So a few days later I asked Bill and told him I would absorb the cost for this man, and he saw him once.  The man came to see me a day later and announced he was not gay but really rather normal as he had been told.  I didn’t say anything to Bill, but a few days later he told me my friend was not gay but confused, and he did not charge for the visit.

“In addition to the good sermons he delivered, I will always remember his getting out of his little VW and starting up the sidewalk only to return and get something else and perhaps do this twice more, and still had the baseball cap on sideways and the look of a man who had much on his mind.  Still he’d stop to say hello and visit prior to going to his office in the church.

“One day he had enough cat hair on his wool coat to make a new cat, which he observed that I noticed as we talked, and he said I seem to have forgotten to brush that off.  My kind of man.  When I think of him I will smile, and that is the way I want to be remembered.”

            Another grateful member at Valley Chapel, in recognition of the help she had received from Bill, commissioned and had installed a stain-glass window in Bill’s office.  Of all the stained-glass windows in the church, that one is the only one that represents the resurrection.  What a perfect place for a resurrection window, for it was in that small space that many persons found the real meaning of resurrection, new hope and new life.

Some of you are aware of Bill’s love of boating, especially sailing.  This pastime began for him as a child visiting with his grandparents who lived near the shore.  Largely ignored during his most productive years, sailing reappeared as the love it once was, and several years before retiring, Bill was back on the water in his own sailboat.  He was in utter ecstasy on the water!  Sometimes, however, wind and waves surge suddenly, even on a lake.  That happened to Bill one time, and he quickly headed back to the pier, but before he could dock the boat, it swamped and rolled over with him under it.  A conscientious and careful sailor, he did have his life jacket on and quickly emerged on the starboard side of the boat.  Rescue operations were successful and Bill’s picture was plastered on the front page of the local newspaper.

            Jesus is said to have walked on water.  Bill couldn’t do that.  Oh, well, maybe in a way he could and did do that for as long as possible facing the tempest of overwhelming illness.  But more importantly, he used his unique gifts of strength, wisdom, skill and care to lead so many others in staying afloat “when the storms of life were raging.”  We are all the shipmates of a good Captain who has shown us the way to sail on.